Soul Searching

I will not go into all the reasons, but I've been doing some soul searching lately.  I am searching for that which we all want - answers.  The problem, much like in Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, is that I don't quite know the questions I should be asking myself.  And before you hint at it, 42 is not involved in this equations, except perhaps at the periphery. 

I renamed this blog The Path Forward and in doing so I've set goals for myself on things like fitness and healthy eating.  I blog periodically about running, or skating, or new years resolutions.  Still...I ask myself, what have I done in the last year?

• Mass - I've managed to reduce my mass a bit - I have gone from that scary number I had never seen before, back to about where I was in 2006 when I started trying to lose weight.  So...all told, I've really managed to gain weight and go back to baseline.
• Fitness - I've accomplished a 5 mile run and another rollerblade marathon - those are the goods.  In the not so good catagory - I didn't get 12 times in at the Y for at least 4 or 5 months last year.  Just 12 times...Oh, I can tell myself I have extenuating circumstances - I belong to two gyms, and I play outdoor sports.  But still, golf and softball take time, and are good activities, but they don't help me lose weight or achieve better fitness.  Climbing helps, but the 1-2 days a week i do that aren't going to cut it...  To sum up - I moderately improved my sedentary lifestyle.

 Hence - the soul searching.  What am I really trying to accomplish here, and what are my barriers?  Why am I not making progress.  My soul searching is revealing some answers I'm not too happy about, though I'm not ready to share....except - do I need or want this blog anymore. That is one answer I'm working out.

Running and walking along

My workplace is offering some incentives for us to become healthier.  I am partaking in a few.  One is 'have dental exam, enter to win gift card'.  Easy enough, and check mark.  Another is a team challenge.  I am part of an 11 person team that will be walking, working out, and slimming our way down.  You can pick 1,2, or 3 of the challenges, and I chose walk msot steps and work out most minutes.  This starts in March, but there is no reason not to get started early.  So...away I go to the gym. 

I have begun working on my running again.  If Miss Karin and Mr. Nate are game, Trev and I will join them for a 5 mile run this spring near their Hometown.  If I'm going to run 5 miles this spring, I had better kick it into gear.  So, to the gym I go tonight, with my little music player, to do week three of Podrunner Intervals and see just how out of running shape I am.  I did the workout last night too, but night two is always the challenge. 

After the Y I will go home and make a healthy dinner, and then see if I have the motivation to do one of the 8,000 projects that sits there staring at me each night.  Maybe I can set a timer and work on something for just 30 minutes?