Tuesday, February 09, 2010

Soul Searching

I will not go into all the reasons, but I've been doing some soul searching lately.  I am searching for that which we all want - answers.  The problem, much like in Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, is that I don't quite know the questions I should be asking myself.  And before you hint at it, 42 is not involved in this equations, except perhaps at the periphery. 

I renamed this blog The Path Forward and in doing so I've set goals for myself on things like fitness and healthy eating.  I blog periodically about running, or skating, or new years resolutions.  Still...I ask myself, what have I done in the last year?
  • Mass - I've managed to reduce my mass a bit - I have gone from that scary number I had never seen before, back to about where I was in 2006 when I started trying to lose weight.  So...all told, I've really managed to gain weight and go back to baseline.
  • Fitness - I've accomplished a 5 mile run and another rollerblade marathon - those are the goods.  In the not so good catagory - I didn't get 12 times in at the Y for at least 4 or 5 months last year.  Just 12 times...Oh, I can tell myself I have extenuating circumstances - I belong to two gyms, and I play outdoor sports.  But still, golf and softball take time, and are good activities, but they don't help me lose weight or achieve better fitness.  Climbing helps, but the 1-2 days a week i do that aren't going to cut it...  To sum up - I moderately improved my sedentary lifestyle.
 Hence - the soul searching.  What am I really trying to accomplish here, and what are my barriers?  Why am I not making progress.  My soul searching is revealing some answers I'm not too happy about, though I'm not ready to share....except - do I need or want this blog anymore. That is one answer I'm working out.

1 comment:

cobaltriposte said...

It's frustratingly easy to slip into a sedentary lifestyle. Many years of career-wandering has shown me that we have two workplace options: a sit-down job with all the trimmings but little means to practice a healthy lifestyle, or a manual-labor job that keeps you physically fit but financially lacking (and, often, without much respect from many people who took the first option). Maybe if I keep looking, I'll find my dream job in which this is not the case. (Grumblings from a fellow soul-searcher)